Kids these days
Kids my age need to grow up and stop being so annoying.
I never wanted you
I never wanted to.
I know I told you I did
In front of witnesses
And then we lit one wick
But now I get my kicks
I know you never suspected
because I never said
Baby, I was faking the whole time
How could you ever have guessed it?
With no accomplices,
Baby, I was faking the whole time
You know it isn’t like me to be
Inflammatory
But rather than let you think I was
So naive, I’d have you believe
I never wanted you
I never wanted you.
You never had my heart
Our love was never true
I know you never suspected
because I never said
Baby, I was faking the whole time.
How could you have ever guessed it?
With no accomplices,
Baby, I was faking the whole time
No we never connected
You only thought we did
Baby, I was only faking the whole time
Baby, I was only faking the whole time
Baby, I was only faking the whole time.
Watch me.
I’m going to do amazing things with my life.
This video has so much emotion in it. I absolutely love it. It’s a beautiful dance and has so much passion behind it. The lyrics themselves are amazing as well. It just makes me want to chill and just be content with life and where I’m at. I love the feeling this song gives me. It’s just really touching.
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Seeing happy families almost make me cry. Not that my family is really bad, I just love seeing the families that are happy where they are in life. I wish all children had the chance to grow up in a home/family that they love and enjoy being around. It’s sad to know that some people struggle just being around their family. Truthfully, everyone should have that chance for happiness and love. I absolutely love seeing children running around and being so carefree. They are so innocent and absent minded, not knowing all the troubles life brings. And when their parents watch them from the distance and take in their child’s energy, it’s just amazing. It takes me a lot to not tear up. I know it’s a sappy feeling to try to describe, but I just can’t wait till I get to have that. I know I want tons of things for my life like a good career, and so on. But honestly, if I can just have that feeling for myself I will be satisfied with my life. I know marriages are not always completely stress free and there are hard times couples have to go through, but having those times and then being able to sit back and love my life and be completely content with everything I have is what I look forward to. There is nothing more I’d want with my life.
October 1
Happy Birthday mom.
who said it was a good thing?
Here is a little bit of the work I’ve accomplished in the past couple of weeks. It’s not great but it helps.
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Despite our best interest, we decided to fall in love.
We fell into an ocean of fear,
as we remembered the time before.
They promised we would learn to be okay
but the insecurity still consumes us today.
I am scared to death to tell you the truth.
Honestly, I may love you.
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Every girls dream became my mistake;
wanting to be loved and cared for.
It’s not how they said it would be,
from happiness to self-destruction.
The mistake no one knows but it tears us apart.
The mistake that will haunt till death do us part.
How do you overcome this lie?
There’s no running from this one,
there’s no forgetting or moving on.
it’s has become an everyday thought.
It’s not worth to have and to hold from that day forward.
Ladies and Gentlemen, it’s not worth desiring for.
And I would know.
writing a fairytale
I’ve started doing a little writing, this one that I’m working on isn’t too bad. I should put it up soon, I’m definitely excited to get other people’s opinions on it so be looking out for that.
School’s a Drool
Test Monday.
World Civilization Quiz Thursday.
Test next Friday, and a paper dude.
The Following Tuesday is a World Civ Test,
As well as a Test that Thursday in World Religion.
Jeeez school!
Sometimes I really wish I could be elegant and for better lack of words, more of a girl. But I’m just not. I’ve grown up with 3 brothers, sports, and hunting (not that I really hunt, just my family). I see so many girls who take hours to get ready in the morning, and it often pays off for them. Their hair is done perfectly, as well as their make-up. They usually have a boyfriend who would do just about anything for them and are just as gorgeous as them. I personally find myself just wanting to get up, throw my hair in a half pony-tail and go on with my life. I try to make myself look nice but I feel like I don’t really succeed sometimes. I very rarely put on make-up, I think beauty should somewhat be natural and not just based on the make-up you put on your face. Yet, to be considered “pretty” or something to that sort you have to wear make-up.
Plus, clothes. Now I have some nice clothes but i feel like sometimes it doesn’t really compared to other girls and their styles. They always have the perfect accessories to go with all their outfits (as well as their perfect hair and make-up). I want to start dressing more stylish, but it’s kinda hard sometimes and a little expensive. Women are judge today, a lot of the time, by what they look like and how they dress (as least it seems this way to me). It’s kinda upsetting because how is a girl who doesn’t have great style and all that supposed to find a half decent man if they base on the appearance and not the inside.
I guess this really could go both ways.
Half of me wants to be one of those girls that turn heads every time they walk into a room, but also I remember if I was one of them. I definitely wouldn’t be the girl I am today, which honestly I’m pretty content with. Sometimes I have some self-asteem or self-concept issues but what girl doesn’t these days? Everything is based on appearance: you have to be skinny, you have to be beautiful with no flaws, you have to wear the right stuff, say the right things.
I just want to be at least half elegant and beautiful and not always known as the “tom-boy.”
